The agonizing wait
She was in pain, real pain. She wanted it to end now. She saw a hint of tears in his eyes and holding on to his hand, she thought about all the good times they had shared.
It was almost perfect. How they fell in love and got married. How much she loved him and how he took care of her all this time, never leaving her alone. Both of them knew this was bound to happen sooner or later. She stared deep into his eyes before tightly shutting hers. The time had come.
Trying not to scream out loud, she squeezed his hand one last time and heard the doctor say, “Congratulations! It’s a girl!”
It was almost perfect. How they fell in love and got married. How much she loved him and how he took care of her all this time, never leaving her alone. Both of them knew this was bound to happen sooner or later. She stared deep into his eyes before tightly shutting hers. The time had come.
Trying not to scream out loud, she squeezed his hand one last time and heard the doctor say, “Congratulations! It’s a girl!”
The new year 2011
Just realised that i did not write even a single blog post in 2010. I don't really know what i was busy in or what i did last year, it just flew by. I had some role changes at work which might have led to the amnesia.
I have mainly two main resolutions, if you want to call them that(usually nobody sticks to the new year resolutions and it might be safer to call them something else). First, i will spend more time playing sports or at least some physical activity. Second is that i will read and finish at least 1 book every month. Lets see how much i can stick to these.
I also have a wish: i achieve some kind of certainty in life. There is a lot going on currently and that has been the case for quite a long time.
Here's wishing myself and all my friends a fantadtic new year full of happy moments!!
I have mainly two main resolutions, if you want to call them that(usually nobody sticks to the new year resolutions and it might be safer to call them something else). First, i will spend more time playing sports or at least some physical activity. Second is that i will read and finish at least 1 book every month. Lets see how much i can stick to these.
I also have a wish: i achieve some kind of certainty in life. There is a lot going on currently and that has been the case for quite a long time.
Here's wishing myself and all my friends a fantadtic new year full of happy moments!!
Metamorphosis
"Papa kehte hain...", that was the song playing on the old speaker system of the rickety bus. The bus had stopped en-route at a small village. The aroma of freshly fried samosas filled the air. The sun had just come out and slowly the golden yellow sunlight was engulfing everything in its warmth. As I stared out of the window I saw a mother lovingly combing the hair of her son, apparently getting him ready for school. Her son was a cute but restless kid who had a frown on his face. He wanted to join his friends who were waiting nearby so that they could go to school together. But the mother was taking her time ensuring that not a single hair was out of place. And why not? For a mother, the most beautiful child in the world is her own. After what seemed like an eternity for the kid, he broke out of his mother's embrace and ran fast to join his friends. I smiled at the episode played out in front of me. Here's the kid wanting to rush out to the outside world. And here I am who wants to go back, who does not want to leave, who wants to stay for some more time. I was going out of my city for the first time. My school had finished and I had got admission to a reputed college in another state. I was very excited on getting into such a good college and the prospect of leading an independent life but I never expected that I would miss home so much so soon. My smile changed into a sigh as my childhood flashed in front of my eyes. Getting dressed for school, the morning milk I hated so much, the scolding received on spoiling the clothes by playing in dirt, the craze for the wrist watch, the oh-so-dreaded visits to the barber shop, the small-at-home birthday parties with all neighbourhood kids, the big blue sky covered in small, colourful, diamond shaped tiles called kites. Aah, I am going to miss everything so much. Suddenly, a loud noise and vibration broke my reverie. Both the noise and the vibration were coming from my pocket. I fished out my cell phone and a tear rolled down my cheek as I saw on the screen, "Mom calling".
Peculiar!!
All of us want a mostly normal life. We don't want our life to be unpredictable. In fact, every human being wants to make minimum decisions. For eg. Remember the time when you used to attend any type of lecture/class. Most likely you used to sit at a particular place even when all other places were equally good to sit. The reason is everyday your mind does not like to decide where to sit. Hence, you sub-conciously pick a seat and try to always sit there. Then again, waiting for a bus/train is very painful. The reason being you are not sure when it is going to come(unpredictable) and hence continuously keep checking the latest update. You could easily sit down and do something else. If you are sitting on the right platform, you will obviously see the train whenever it arrives. Thus, all of us like everything to be predictable and normal.
Now comes the interesting part. In contrast to real life, we always appreciate things out of the ordinary in any art. For eg. A normal photograph showing a normal house or an office with people in it is boring but if its a photo of Amitabh Bacchhan's house, people are interested. A movie with a normal story line is boring. For that matter, just think about your circle of friends from school. You will most likely remember only the odd ones(the most studious, the most funny etc.)
We are peculiar, aren't we?
My new Laptop!
Yesterday, I went ahead and purchased the HP Pavilion DV2 - 1003AX Notebook(Click on the images for a bigger picture). My key requirement was portability(read light-weight) and mobility while not compromising on the performance. I thought this one hit the sweet spot.Spec:
Screen size : 12.1 inches
Processor: AMD Athlon Neo 1.6 GHz
RAM: 2 GB
Graphics Memory: ATI Radeon 512 MB dedicated card
HDD: 320 GB
Weight: 1.7 kgs
OS: Windows Vista Home premium - free upgrade to Windows 7 in Oct.
Price: Rs. 44.5 k
NOT Bad!! I say!
The usual Mars-Venus comparison
Girls: A girl came home very late. She told her father that she was at friend's house. The father called 10 of her friends but all of them told that she had not come at their place.Boys: A boy didn't come home one night. Next day, he told father that he had slept at his friend's house. Father called 10 of his friends, 8 of them confirmed he had slept in their house and the remaining 2 claimed he was still there.
:)
:)
Whenever you are down and out, whenever you are feeling low, everything just seems bad, only few people really care. I feel lucky to have the selfless love of my parents who accept me as I am. They never want to change me except when I am doing something totally wrong. And they always want me to be happy and they are ready to sacrifice their own feelings or happiness for that. And this is not only during the time when I was a kid. The same feelings are there throughout the life. I am really grateful to GOD for giving me such parents and their love. I wish they will always be with me and that I will always keep them happy.
I am also lucky to have a truly outstanding sibling who knows me totally and understands everything. We share a really special relationship and I wish we continue the same way hamesha.
:) Pata nahi kyun likha hai.. just felt like writing.. :)
I am also lucky to have a truly outstanding sibling who knows me totally and understands everything. We share a really special relationship and I wish we continue the same way hamesha.
:) Pata nahi kyun likha hai.. just felt like writing.. :)
The moment of realization
He stared anxiously at the machine. In a few seconds, his life would be changed. He started to think about the consequences. No more enduring the loud-mouthed neighbour. No more reading newspaper at the bus stop. No more watching cricket at the corner tea shop. No more "if only". The constant beeping of the machine broke his amusing reverie and out came the crisp green bills - his first salary!
The first drop of rain
Finally...
The struggle was really long and painful and now when it is over, surprisingly, he did not feel happiness. It was as though he was emotionally discharged because of all he had to go through. No, it was not physical labour. This one was purely psychological, the feeling of helplessness, wishing to control life, wanting to set things as they ought to be, the agony of not being where one wants to. The constant effort to keep oneself motivated, happy or look happy at least. All the while, knowing at the back of the mind, still there is something missing.
But that's past now. There seems to be light at the end of the tunnel, a ray of hope, a new beginning. It is like the first drop of rain after a hot, grueling summer. It is like having a sunny day after long, dark winter. Feeling of warmth, feeling of relief. A smile comes to his lips now, the smile is not really of happiness. It is a smile of triumph over yet another difficult phase. It is a smile of wonder, as though questioning the Almighty, how many more mountains to climb, how many more "Agni Pareekshas " to go through? It is a smile of finally being able to enjoy the small things in life, at least for a while. And finally it is also a smile of excitement, the eagerness of meeting that someone special after such a long time.......
The struggle was really long and painful and now when it is over, surprisingly, he did not feel happiness. It was as though he was emotionally discharged because of all he had to go through. No, it was not physical labour. This one was purely psychological, the feeling of helplessness, wishing to control life, wanting to set things as they ought to be, the agony of not being where one wants to. The constant effort to keep oneself motivated, happy or look happy at least. All the while, knowing at the back of the mind, still there is something missing.
But that's past now. There seems to be light at the end of the tunnel, a ray of hope, a new beginning. It is like the first drop of rain after a hot, grueling summer. It is like having a sunny day after long, dark winter. Feeling of warmth, feeling of relief. A smile comes to his lips now, the smile is not really of happiness. It is a smile of triumph over yet another difficult phase. It is a smile of wonder, as though questioning the Almighty, how many more mountains to climb, how many more "Agni Pareekshas " to go through? It is a smile of finally being able to enjoy the small things in life, at least for a while. And finally it is also a smile of excitement, the eagerness of meeting that someone special after such a long time.......
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